“During my studies, I met a man, which I found very attractive from the very first moment. We got to know each other better. We were united not only by friendship. I heard it then, that he has a girlfriend. Suddenly I found out, that he married her during the holidays. Even so, he was still seeing me. He spoke, that the marriage did not live up to his expectations. I was counting on his affection. Ultimately, however, he chose marriage and cut off contact with me. How to convince him, that a simple letter from him would not be something binding?”
Everything shows that, that the boy has matured socially and emotionally. I – unfortunately – he is right. The lady after the letters does not expect only proofs of memory, but confirmation of your interest in your person, still lasting feelings, which – brutally speaking – it only exists in your imagination.
You are trying to deceive not only others, but most of all myself. You interpret reality, behavior of other people according to your desires. It is irrational and dangerous. You are an active person. In this situation, new responsibilities and a change of environment will be the best, a natural form of therapy, will allow you to distance yourself from the problem that plagues you today.