“After two years of walking with my boyfriend, I decided to start sexual intercourse. This "first time” he was terrible. Is it normal, that I loathe myself?”
Self-loathing after the first intercourse shows that first of all, that person, who experiences such feelings, she was brought up in a rather strict manner, wary of sex spirit, and at the same time she was instilled with great respect for virginity. If that "first time” turned out to be worth so little, then he disgusts himself for it, that she had even decided to do something like this, that she broke her rules. Judging from the letter, blame for this unsuccessful "first time” bear no boyfriend, but something, what was in the lady. Research on the self-esteem of this "first time."” they show, that girls are much more likely than boys to be either disappointed in the relationship, or dissatisfied with your partner, who "couldn't do it *". Fact can also be the cause of negative reactions, that the first intercourse almost never ends with an orgasm. As a rule, it is very short, sometimes only a few seconds, and it makes things worse, that the girl has not yet developed an orgasmic reaction. It does have expectations, i to spore. After all, she had read a lot about love. Its literary image surpasses any real experience. Hence the great disappointment. Especially often the unsuccessful "first time” takes place then, when intercourse happened not spontaneously, but as a result of a reasoned decision, from the will to implement the previously arranged plan. Both sides then deal with the sexual act purely mechanically and physically, and this is beautiful, it is certainly not. In your case, my advice will be overdue, but I suggest to other young people, lest they be in a hurry, did not plan on cold. Sometimes you can start intercourse after just two months of acquaintance, sometimes even after two years the partners are still immature and it is not worth starting.